Good Use Of My Bad Health

Recent scientific discoveries indicate that one of the earliest ancestors of whales was an animal with a mouse-like snout and a build between a fox and a deer, called Indohyus, which lived in water to hide from predators, despite being a land mammal. Through evolution, Indohyus underwent numerous anatomical modifications until they became whales forty million years ago.This project is the third chapter of a larger research project that has as its starting point the transformations over time that a rare degenerative disease makes on my body. If in the first and second chapters I represent and deal with my disability as something to be discovered and made aware of, in this work between self-portrait and video-installation I focus on and question how a disabled body relates to nature, being outside the canons of performance and athleticism, examining the connection between bodies in constant movement, technology and the environment.I am inspired by the concepts of Donna Haraway - for whom the union of cyborg and human challenges traditional, binary categories such as man/woman, organic/inorganic, natural/artificial - and the concept of Astrida Neimanis Human as a Body of Water: as aquatic bodies, we experience ourselves less as isolated entities and more as oceanic whirlpools, in which water is a continuous gestation of differences, con-fusing and suggesting that we look further afield, complicating any supposed opposition between ‘we are all the same’ and ‘we are all different’.The posthuman approach transforms my body into a theatre of reception for foreign elements, highlighting infections, contaminations and possible metamorphoses. I find the cyborg in the tools of help that, as the body deteriorates, become part of my everyday life, and I consider water not only as a physical element, but as a metaphor for relationship and care.