Pink Fish of Insomnia

Living in a foreign country has changed the way I see things. The experience of being an outsider grants a certain freedom, and while I may not be certain of where I belong, I no longer feel the need to define myself by that question. Moving from one place to another has transformed me, leading me to understand that freedom exists in the fluidity of space and identity I aim to offer people access to something deeper, a space where they can find peace and connection. I am no longer in this pursuit. What began as an escape has become a way to engage more deeply with the world. The act of getting lost in a city I barely know mirrors my process - an experience of exploration, guided by intuition and emotion. The act of moving to different places can be a profound transformation - an opportunity to reclaim a sense of belonging and find meaning through vulnerability and adaptability. This creates a dreamlike sense of duality, where the boundaries between humans and their environments become a narrative of resilience. It reveals a sense of disconnection that often arises when we are in unfamiliar spaces. Often, I find myself questioning the deeper reasons behind how I see the world. My process is straightforward, rooted in my insecurities and vulnerabilities. It reflects how I feel the world, rather than how I see it. Everything is connected to a emotional imbalance that causes me to feel disconnected from the world, but in engaging with it, I find a sense of connection. There is a link to a different kind of reality—one that is less distracted, and more truthful. It helps me reconnect when words fail to capture the essence of what I feel. In this way, I create not out of choice, but from a relentless drive to express and explore, to transform the tangled emotions within me into something tangible. It is not merely a choice; it’s a must—a deep urge to make sense of the world and communicate what words cannot. How we look at the world and observe it determines what we actually see. I seek to reinvent the ordinary - identifying patterns and making unusual connections between things that seem unrelated. This title Pink Fish of Insomnia doesn’t just describe an external condition, but rather speaks to a deeper, more emotional experience of being disconnected, searching for belonging, and navigating complex feelings of vulnerability. It's about being in a space of constant motion, without fully understanding the path, yet being driven by the need to find meaning or sense of peace.